The past has no power over the present moment.

Eckhart Tolle

We have used the poetry of nirvana to weave the traffic noise of samsara.

Turning up the stereo or honking the horn doesn’t change anything. 

But remembering you are not driving anywhere helps. 

The All Good Queen of the expanse and the All Good King of luminosity were full of love and joy. They cavorted in, and as, the perfect union of expanse and light without even the notion self or other, with no notion of two beings or of union. Their closeness was beyond the concepts separation or togetherness…they were not two, they were not One, they were beyond enumeration in their mutuality and love. And, as love play tends to do, they gave birth to a child, a son. That which is without origin or birth is birthed from the birthless without ever having been born. It is the truest mystery of incarnation and appearance. And the son had a name, Luminous Blazing.

Traktung Yeshe Dorje, from Mythopoetic Interlude from the Tantras

phanerons-end said: Why does it hurt so much when my significant other tells me he doesn't feel like I love him enough or worse, at all? We both struggle with anxiety and depression. We are each essentially a mirror image, mentally and emotionally. So despite knowing how he feels, why can't I ever not be wounded when he says "You don't really love me"?

No one else can presume to know another’s heart, especially before coming to know their own. 

You are the best judge of whether or not you love someone, not that person. 

We think that if someone loves us, we will feel it. Sometimes we will, sometimes we wont. It has nothing to do with the quality or reality of that love. It has to do with our capacity to love. 

Being out of touch with your heart and accusing someone else of not loving you is like unknowingly keeping your eyes closed and accusing the sun of no longer shining. 

What’s there for you to do about it? Open your eyes to what is there. Try not to take the stories you tell yourself and each other too seriously. 

Take up tonglen meditation. That will definitely help. I’d highly recommend the book The Places That Scare You by Pema Chodron. It is wonderful guidance for those struggling with anxiety and depression. 

Namaste my friend. Much love :)

Anyone know a good simple multivitamin to take daily?

Apologies for the lagging posts and responses, still seeing to my health issues regarding my spontaneous muscle cramps and joint locks.

Basically hobbling from one doctor to the next until they figure it out :P

Rest in a natural way like a small child. Rest like an ocean without waves. Rest within clarity like a candle flame. Rest without self-concerns like a human corpse. Rest unmoving like a mountain. 

Rest in a natural way like a small child. Rest like an ocean without waves. Rest within clarity like a candle flame. Rest without self-concerns like a human corpse. Rest unmoving like a mountain. 


Every day, think as you wake up, today I am fortunate to be alive, I have a precious human life, I am not going to waste it. I am going to use all my energies to develop myself, to expand my heart out to others; to achieve enlightenment for the benefit of all beings. I am going to have kind thoughts towards others, I am not going to get angry or think badly about others. I am going to benefit others as much as I can.

The Dalai Lama

doodling progress

doodling progress

kzshyia said: How do you know if you can trust someone with your heart, with your vulnerabilities? Thank you yogi! :D

“The best way to find out if you can trust somebody is to trust them.” 

Ernest Hemingway

Namaste :)

It is difficult to bring people to goodness with lessons, but it is easy to do so by example.


neuronlover said: Hey Lazy, What do you think about the conflict between GAZA and Israel ? I feel like as humans I need to do something but I just don't know how I can respond to all these madness?

If this problem could have been solved from the outside, it would have been over a long time ago. 

The UN was directly involved with the recognition of Israel as a country over fifty years ago and the partitioning of Palestine. 

It’s very hard to find examples of outside forces meddling in a country’s cultural existence that has turned out to be beneficial for everyone. 

Sometimes there is temporary peace, sometimes there is violence. The only way beyond both is transformation from the inside. 

I don’t think any of us who are coming from the outside are seeing anything clearly with respect to the actual situation. We see the news, we hear stories, we may even have family there, but we have no substantial firsthand understanding of the reality. 

We can be supportive of peace, always, but picking sides and saying who started what and who’s to blame and what should be done just isn’t a realistic approach. 

Namaste :)

caviearahdreams said: Hi!! I've been reading your posts since April (although time is an illusion!) and I have read half of the book "The Power of Now" and I understand that simply being alive in the present moment is the essence of life, but what about having desires? Is it okay to want to be really successful in life? To work hard to get where you want to go?

Hey brother! That’s fantastic and I am very happy for you. 

Remember that the spiritual path is not a religion in the sense of “do’s” and “do not’s”. 

The reason why we often talk about desires being “bad” is because of the deluded view from which they arise and the subsequent confusion they then create. 

Typical delusion that causes desire is the misperceived location of happiness or identity. Once you cease to cling to a fixed identity as well as rediscover happiness as being an inner thing rather than an outer acquisition, desire takes on a different meaning. 

Inherent in desire is energy. Our purity and strength of desire determines the strength of energy it lends to us. In Tantra, both Buddhist and Hindu, desire is used as an energetic skillful means. Although sex typically comes to mind when most people hear the word “Tantra,” the desire of which use is made could be anything. The desire for a cup of tea, the desire for astronomically brilliant sex, the desire to play with a puppy. 

So what is desire when it is no longer coming from a deluded place, when the fulfillment of that desire is not something on which we hinge our happiness and identity? Perhaps we can call such a thing an “aspiration” instead of a desire. 

The spiritual path is an inner journey that will change the way we relate to outward appearances. But remember, there are no rules but compassion and clarity. Therefore aspire for whatever you feel oriented toward.

I am currently in premedical schooling and this time next year I will be applying to medical schools. It’s a long road to becoming a doctor. If my desire were to be a doctor, then I may have all sorts of hangups along the way. How can I get there quickest? What if this or that gets in my way? What if…

But simply my aspiration is to utilize the entirety of my mind-body skill set to be of help to others while providing myself a means to live in society. My appreciation and passion for science makes each step of the journey its own end and beginning. 

By all means, follow what inspires you and see where it may lead. In my experience, inspiration meets with something that you’ve typically overlooked and a new direction emerges. 

Namaste :) Much love

If someone comes along and shoots an arrow into your heart, it’s fruitless to stand there and yell at the person. It would be much better to turn your attention to the fact that there’s an arrow in your heart…

Pema Chodron

Sermon on Pain

Why is compassion practice so important? For example, the practice of tonglen invites us to deliberately think about the things that bring us real, heart-wrenching pain. We visualize these things, dwell on them, and let the tears well up from our chest and pour out through our eyes. We breathe all that suffering in. 

And we then exhale Love. Affection. Healing. 

While we begin with thinking about ourselves and our pain, perhaps a recent break-up or life challenge, next we think about the people we love who have also gone through those experiences. And then we take their pain upon ourselves while exhaling compassion yet again. 

But we don’t stop there. We broaden this to think of complete strangers who have experienced this sort of pain. And then we broaden it to people we dislike, even enemies. Finally we broaden it to anyone who has ever experienced pain in any form. 

You can imagine the way tonglen and compassion practice keeps things in perspective. 

However if you don’t practice, it’s easy to lose touch with the wisdom of the soft heart. The wisdom does not come from the mind’s understanding of the soft heart. It comes from the heart being soft. To soften the heart enough for the mind to understand is not the point. 

In the years since high school, I’ve had some trouble with my legs. Maybe once a year, they would lock up at the knees causing pain and mild alarm within me. It has been almost two years since it happened last and then this past Friday boom! They locked. 

I’ve been making a lot of progress these past few weeks in loosing up knots and tensions in my body and perhaps that created conditions that exacerbate this condition. Regardless, I’ll be seeing a doctor about it soon. 

In the meantime, it was hellish. Usually it was one knee, this time it was both knees. Usually it only lasts for a few hours. This time it lasted for two days. I have an exam on tuesday to study for, work to do for my jobs, and apartment hunting to pursue. 

Not only did this experience interrupt all my plans, but it awakened my suffering and my pain-body. It shifted through moments of frustration that I couldn’t fix this myself. Anxiety that I have things I need to be doing. Shame for my body being so incapable and neglected. Sadness and loneliness that there was no one there to help or comfort me. 

It also revealed my habits, where I turned when I felt at my weakest. Some animals drag themselves off to die far away from the pack. I can empathize with that. Others might chew off their own leg. I can also empathize with that. 

But most of all it revealed how out of touch I had fallen with suffering. Being at peace is nice but not if it comes at the cost of ignorance. Tonglen practice is an important way for meditators to remain in touch with their peace but also with the reality of suffering on the mind-body level. 

As someone who aspires to be a doctor, it’s also incredibly important to keep in mind the suffering of your patients. One of the most difficult lessons I remember my father had learned early on in his career was when a terminal patient of his left behind a poem. This patient wasn’t angry at god for the illness he had nor at the inability of modern medicine to save him. The thing he needed most throughout the whole experience was a hand to hold. 

Don’t turn away from pain and suffering, in yourself and each other. They are not wrong and they are not our enemies. They can be a gateway to a loving-kindness that evolves our mere human hearts into something divine, indescribably sincere, and wholly ordinary.

In the meantime, I’d just like to say that I love you all. Whatever your suffering, your challenges, your flaws or confusions, we never have anyone else but each other. 

It’s not a matter of remembering or forgetting. Just loving.

Namaste my friends.